It's Not Just The Drug that you need to change or stop using . Hi There!!!

 

            The power of "pain"! I would had never imagine how strong of  a hold it has on your mind and emotions. I have been living with this constant pain which tends to be  most days. I been constant for a year now, not trying to complain!

       My husband and I go walking for several hours every weekend  but the pain was so bad yesterday that I would just walk quickly to get away from that crazy loud , odd noise, that cause my pain to get worse, dang I thought my head was going explode . John would grab me and look at me and be so upset while telling me how I could have been hit by the on coming car, I told him that I didn't care for the pain would stop then. crazy right!

     Pain can be so bad that a person can't think in the right frame of mind. You'll tend to get angry instead of feeling  joy, or to happiness, which is now a goal of mine. I'am trying to learn  to live with the pain and be happy,  plus I think I want to go back to work.

    Going back to work while having daily pain that certain common sounds bring so much pain that I will fall to my knees and want to cry. This is one thing that I am wanting to change in my messed up or lets say boring life which I have lived for too many years.

       My doctors told me that I need all these pills and not knowing better I became addicted . My first marriage fail apart but I kinda thought it would for I only married him to get away from my Mom which never works! I do love my daughters from that marriage this is before John who walked into their lives as teenagers oh he must have loved me,,

     I would say within a year of being divorced my life was screwed up! I started smoking weed, which you got to remember was in the early 70's so it was amazing, some was taking a drug, it was crazy fun. The hash and it's oil, the paper ,dip in oil  blotter, LSD, I could go on but this mostly lead to speed. 

     It might sound strange but I never cared for the taste of any kind of alcohol ! Oh boy though did Miss Sissy, LOL she was so drunk one night that she ran across the hall into my apartment with a pair of scissors, aimed straight at my chest! Thank the dear Lord, he had my room mate Gail sitting next to me and she stopped her dead on, crazy night!

   I needed a job so Sissy my neighbor got me a job with her waiting tables at a fancy place that they actually had and used under ground tunnels in the basement, in the Civil War for slaves to get free.  Speed was the answer for a waiting tables and doing buffets.

    Money for drugs of course but kids still came first. I made alot of money and they were little tot's so we had plenty to get some beds and other much needed household items slowly at least :)  Let me jump back and tell you that a daughter to 2 parent who also had four brothers.

     Yikes that was so hard for reasons I will not to go into at the moment for its a story to tell. Sissy and I did our speed and smoked the best weed most of the time why it was only 30to 40 a bag considering the date it was still a good price for of course the right dealer and wow you had killer stuff. 

     I have to admit that I fell in love with it  over the years of valium and klonopin, the other two drugs that I held on to through the years valium I took 20 yrs, the klonopin I worked down to  .5 of 1 pill and my Mom died and I relapsed back to 3 of them and  started medical weed. this was a hard winter for me so much lost.

    I ended up losing my entire family except for 3 text messages from one brother now that is sad but they blasted me, oh my goodness so many stories to tell . I can say it is so nice to have someone to now talk too. I'll be back :)

      Today has been a bear for me since my pain level has been off the charts since this morning. This is 5 straight days without any break. A few hours sounds good but it's what they call life right. I would had been in pain at home or out walking, so John and I went on a  walk. 

   A walk that started at 12:15 until 4:00p.m. mostly climbing hills and it was so windy and chilly to cold and it's only sept. yikes I hope it's not a early cold winter. I honestly wouldn't mind that as long as it just stayed cold. Last year was so painful due to 20 degree temp changes a day and it seemed to rain half the week or more it was so wet, yuck!

        Again due to trying to get away from sounds or just not being able to think straight, John had to pull me out of traffic twice again today plus I kept losing my balance. I think that might be because Iam down to 102lbs and my doctor just check's my thyroid. Granted I do have a hyper thyroid but there are other things going on with our bodies right .

    I tried to center myself while we climb up and up the hills 

  

Lovely Sexy Alluring

    I love lingerie it makes me feel so sexy and alot more appealing to my husband. Its great to wear when I want to heat things up between us. I love this piece which is a baby doll open crotch pant dress which I order in red.

    I love the color it is very pretty it is a darker red leaning towards a maroon color but very pretty. It is a appealing  color for they are out of them right now but there is blue, black and purple available. I did order a size up for some brands seem to run small and it fits me very nicely.
   The material which is 65% polyester and 35% cotton is very smooth and so soft against my skin. The top of the baby doll is is a lovely lacy pattern of large roses and then there are smaller ones making it so attractive and so pretty.

   The middle of the baby doll is also a the same pattern. The bottom is a sheer see through material that has a open crotch. The straps are adjustable which I love since Iam short and small it allows for a better proper fit.
    The stitching is very well done with no loose threads that could cause the material to fray apart. The seams are straight and even with good stitching, even the hem line. 

It will be easy to clean for I can place it in my lingerie bag and toss it in the washing machine or I could use a mild soap and hand wash and air dry.
    I love that it is open crotch this allows me to keep it on when Iam in the heat on the moment with my husband plus then I can fall asleep with it on. It has a good stretch making it very comfortable to wear. The material is very lightweight  so it doesn't make me feel hot while wearing it.

    I love the look in my husbands eye when he looks at me when Iam wearing it for it sure heats things up fast. It is very lovely and would be ideal to gift to your partner. It comes with tags so I know that it is brand new. I received this product at a discounted rate in exchange for my honest and unbiased opinion.
https://www.amazon.com/dp/B01HDFFPEA

Adult Rabbit Vibrator

     The vibrator is packaged discreetly if your concerned about this and it came in good condition. I really like the purple color and the design of this vibrator plus  the rabbit ears reach the spot you would want it too.
   Four inches of the shaft can be inserted and has beads that are somewhat powerful to stimulate your vaginal walls. I  personally  don't care for the girth of the shaft for it is too small but this could be because I prefer a bigger diameter for that full feeling but if this is your first rabbit vibrator you will be pleased with it.

   It need 4 AAA batteries to operate it which are easy to install in the base of the rabbit. I was pleased with the power that it has. The rabbit has nine different fun modes to choose from that can be intensify with more speed for more excitement. The modes vary from virbrations, thumping modes and then a mixture of both.
           Another plus that this rabbit has is that it has 360 degree rotation which I like but this again is where I feel would have been more enjoyable if the shaft was bigger. But you have to keep in mind that this is a personal prefernce of mine.
   The vibrator is made with a very good grade of silicone that is safe to use but make sure that you clean it with soap and water before using and of course after wards. It is nice to use alone or with your partner to spice things up.

   I advice to use a water based lubricant to make it more enjoyable. I like the rabbit ears the best for they reach that sweet spot with so much power. It not a real loud toy but its not quiet if your concern about this and if you are may I suggest that you play some music.
    This is not waterproof so don't use it in the shower. It is a good value and a good rabbit vibrator for beginners but can please season users. The silicone is non toxic making it good for the environment  and it does feel very soft against your skin. I really liked that when I opened it up it 'didn't  have any unwanted odors. I received this product at a discounted  rate in exchange for my honest and unbiased opinion.
https://www.amazon.com/dp/B01BDN334C?th=1

Securtiy/Flood Light

     It is so dark in my back yard and there have been some looting going on in my neighbor over the past month that I really had a need for this light. Not only that we use our back door alot and it can be hard to see the steps going up the deck so light was needed there also.

      I really like how the light comes with stakes to place them in the ground or you can bolt them to your garage, back porch or the front of the house. It has been raining cats and dogs here every day, so I could have  a picture to show you I placed them in the yard for now but when the weather gets better my husband is going to mount the flood light over the garage.
     This a really nice set it comes with a solar panel, the flood light, two stakes and there is a cable that attaches the flood light to the solar panel  which will keep it charged of course depending on how much sunlight you get that day will make a difference. 

    I really like how they is a button to turn the flood light off and on this way you can conserve the lights power. The 3w solar panel is made with aluminum and is waterproof  insuring that it will have a long life. 
    The wire is 3 meters long making it easy for spreading the solar panel and the flood light apart from each other if you needed too. I love solar lights for you don't need any batteries or have to use electricity which saves me money.
    The flood light has a lithium battery that should last over two years. It has 600 lumen's which is very bright for it was hard to take a good picture of it due too its brightness but this is what I was desiring from it.
   I really like how the flood light is IP65 rated which means it is protected against dust which can build up and dull the sun rays making it not be able to charge fully this is a huge plus! It takes 6 to 8 hours to charge and lights up for 8 to 10 hours.

    Simple and  easy to set up especially if you use the stakes but my husband told me that it would be very simple to mount too. It is very well made making it quite durable with 500 charging  times plus aluminum is known for it ability not to rust.

   I love it, can't wait for a few sunny days so I can get its total brightness and my husband can mount it. The best part to me from owning other solar power lights is that being two pieces

 I can place the flood light in a area that doesn't get much sunlight for I have the solar panel to face the sunlight. I received this product at a discounted rate in exchange for my honest and unbiased opinion.
https://www.amazon.com/W-LITE-Intelligent-Waterproof-Rechargeable-Floodlight/dp/B01K1TZS1A/ref=sr_1_2?ie=UTF8&qid=1484115774&sr=8-2&keywords=10W%20LED%20Super%20Bright%20Solar%20Flood%20Lights%20Outdoor
  

Vibrator For Adult Play

      Oh my where do I start for Iam in love with this vibrator! It has moved up to the top of my list and toy box in fact I keep it charged and next to  pillow. I love that it comes with a USB cord so I don't have to waste money on batteries plus it wont just die on me like batteries would for it stay charged for up to two hours of use.

    This vibrator is made with medical grade silicone making it safe to use but make sure to clean it before using it and of course afterward with warm soapy water. It is 8.5" long with  5" that are insertable and the massager is 2" long.
    I love the size and the girth of the shaft which is almost 5" in diameter which is a huge plus for this toy for it gives you that complete full feeling along with the super power it is makes  this the bomb! I highly advise to use a water based lubricate on the shaft and yourself to make it more enjoyable if you don't the massage will rub against your skin and make you sore.
     This vibrator has so much power which is operated with one controlling motor making  it feel like it is moving around on it own making it more realistic. I would not advice this to be your first vibrator and if  you do buy it start out on the lowest setting and be prepared for a ride.

   This vibrator which is design to stimulate the G-spot which it truly does and your sweet spot at the same time. It has seven different speeds/modes to choose from with five different speeds and when you do it causes the lights to change colors yes it lights up at the base which is nice when its dark.
    The first mode is vibration the next is a stronger vibration, then it changes patterns, like a thumping feeling  one that mixes with thumps and vibrations. It is so much fun going thru them all to see which one is best  for the moment. 
   I like how fast it charges and keeps it charge. The silicone is so very soft and smooth against your skin. The sound is not bad but it can get loud if your concerned about this just play some music or take it to the shower with you for it is 100% waterproof. 
   The more you increase the speed the louder it gets but then so does the pleasure increase. It has to be one of the most powerful motors I own for a vibrator. It comes in a nice black box to store it inside of which a cushion padding to protect it. Which is also nice for gifting to a friend.

      You can use it alone or spice things up with your partner. I absolutely love it I may have gotten it as a sample but would gladly pay full price for it. I can think of no cons and so may pros the best to me is that complete full feeling and the powerful motor. I received this product at a discounted rate  in exchange for my honest and unbiased opinion
https://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B01LWKFJL0/ref=od_aui_detailpages00?ie=UTF8&psc=1

Turtle Meter

   The Turtlemeter is ideal for new moms or mothers with young children. The fear of placing your baby or young child in water that is too hot or cold is a scary feeling. The Turtlemeter can help you  be able to relax and know that your child is safe. I really like how it has a LED screen on the top that digitally detects the warms temperature which starts the moment it is placed in the water.

 The numbers are bold and big enough to be able to read without taking the turtle out of the water. 
I like too that it has the colors so you don't even have to read the screen for if its to cold it will turn blue that is the inner circle surrounding the LED screen. Then  it will turn green when the water is safe to place your baby inside but if it is red the water is too hot.
The turtle will float around the water but your child if old enough he or she  can fully submerge it under the water making it also a toy for them to play with building hand and eye coordination. I really 

like how it comes with the needed batteries so it is ready to use straight from the package.
It's really cute and well made making it very durable. Included is a easy to read and understand instruction booklet. The Turtlemeter would be idea for a baby shower gift or just to give to a mom that doesn't have time to stand there and keep checking the water temperature plus it will let you know if the water starts to cool down to much.

 I know when I was a young mother I sure wish that I had a Turtlemeter it would had save me so much time and effort for with my first kid I worried about everything I did with her oh my! I did receive a sample of this product.

https://www.walmart.com/ip/Ozeri-TM01-Baby-Bath-Floating-Turtle-Toy-and-Tub-Thermometer/33389889

http://www.sears.com/ozeri-turtlemeter-the-baby-bath-floating-turtle-toy/p-04933239000P?plpSellerId=Sears&prdNo=1&blockNo=1&blockType=G1

Rabbit Vibrator Adult Toy

     I have to say that this is a very good company for the first product I received was defective and I wrote to them and was sent a replacement, so they do stand behind their products so you can buy them with confidence.
    The rabbit vibrator arrives discreetly packaged if your concerned about that. When I first saw it I was very intrigued by the unique design for the tip of the vibrator curves upward like a tongue. Then it curves upward and then down to the rabbit.

     The vibrator is made with medical grade silicone making it safe to use but always make sure to clean before and after using it. I find too that a water based lubricate intensify the pleasure and makes for easier insertion.
   I love the pink color and the added chrome/sliver trim plus how soft it feels plus it is very smooth. The rabbit is neat for it has long ears that are powerful to tease the area intended for. The tip or the tongue easily reaches the G-spot for dual pleasure.
   The rabbit vibrator is 8" long with 4.5" that are insertable with a 1.25" diameter. It is operated with two AAA batteries that are easy to insert. There is a little clip if you press it the back opens easier plus it shows the plus and minus making it easier to know which way to inset the batteries.
    I have to say that Iam very pleased with this vibrator for it does deliver. It not very loud and has seven different vibrating modes to choose from each building in intensity or changing patterns which causes a nice teasing effect.

   This toy is great to use alot or alot of fun to use with your partner more like him use on you!  It can be use in the shower for it is water proof. I love that it provides dual pleasures at the same time. It has two buttons that are neat for the light up which is nice in the dark.  This vibrator is so wortht the price infact I feel it is underpriced for all the pleasure I have reached using it for it works great and sure to please.  I received this product at a discounted rate in exchange for my honest and unbiased opinion.
https://www.amazon.com/dp/B01ETCLRWY